Friday, February 10, 2017


In the past little while, there has been some changes in my life. All for the better. It has made me realize that life isn't always bad. Good things do happen when you fight for them. Nothing happens overnight and that's okay. As long as we keep fighting, and keep or spirits up, things will fall into place. This goes for anything, weather it be mental health and fighting for better days, work, personal issues.. almost anything. Just remember to keep fighting, keep working towards your goals, and don't give up.

Saturday, November 19, 2016

Stigma at Work

Those that suffer from mental illness, who don't have a job can be challenging.

When looking for work, and trying to explain to a potential employer about your personal situation can be very difficult. Some won't hire a person with mental illness even if fully qualified for the job. Why?

We have good days and bad days just like anyone else. When I was 18 years old, my cousin got me a job with her working at a local pizza place in town. I had to explain to this lady that with my anxiety there were certain things I couldn't do. Thankfully she was very understanding, and only gave me work I could handle. If I had to run out for 5 minutes of fresh air, that was okay.

Now, I'm nearly 26 years old and finding a job that would understand my situation and my illness is impossible. It seems nobody wants a qualified worker just because they have a mental illness. Stigma at its finest.

I would give it my all to stop the stigma of mental illness in the work place. If these employers can't hire someone because of it, they aren't worthy enough to have you. You are far better then that.

Keep your head held high, and let's bring down the stigma, together.

Tuesday, November 15, 2016


Some days I feel everything at once. Other days I feel nothing at all.
I don't know what's worse;
Drowning between the waves, or dying of thirst.

That's exactly how I feel with anxiety and depression. It's like a constant battle between the two in my head. Powerful and overwhelming. 

Since the day I was diagnosed with depression, over 12 years ago, I have seen a therapist every week. Talking about anything and everything to just help clear my head of the clutter. When I was diagnosed with anxiety, I bumped up my sessions to twice a week. The thoughts were overwhelming me.

It's the best thing I've done, seeing a therapist. Getting all the negative thoughts out of me, to someone I trust and won't judge me no matter how crazy my words may sound.

For those of you who suffer from any kind of mental illness, or disability, I strongly suggest you talk to someone. No matter how hard it is to get out, it feels so much better when you do. There is no need to feel embarrassed, we are all in this together.

Keep fighting your fight.

Saturday, November 5, 2016


Why do we shy away and hide the fact that we suffer from mental illness? Truth be told there is nothing to be ashamed of. None of us asked for this. None of us wanted this.

What I have learned, is that my mental illness has made me who I am today. Strong. I no longer fear the judgement or rejection of others because I have anxiety and depression. I was given this life because I am strong enough to endure it. Live it. Embrace it.

Never be ashamed of who you are. Especially if you suffer from a mental illness. Seek those who will empathize with you. Talk about it. Write about it. Let the world know. Together we can stop the stigma. Together we can learn, and find peace. We can grow as individuals.
I challenge you to stand up with us, and stop the stigma of mental illness. Let's be real about it.

Be you <3

Friday, November 4, 2016

Living with Depression

My life with depression has been a lot like a roller coaster ride. The good days, you have your arms up, smiling and laughing. You don't want it to end. You're high on life and you don't want that to ever go away.

The bad days, you're hanging on for dear life, eyes closed, and hoping it will just stop because it is the worst feeling you can imagine.

I have heard so many people who don't understand say to me; snap out of it. Just get over it. If only it were that easy. Some look at my life and wonder what I could possibly be depressed about. I have a beautiful son, who has brightened up my life. Amazing parents who have always stood by my side. A loving boyfriend who never judges no matter how irrational I can be. Spectacular friends who have always been right there when I need them. What is so horrible about that? Not a damn thing. Except I'm still stuck in the nightmare.

I know all too well about the days you just can't get out of bed, all you can do is cry. On these days, I remember this quote.
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead I advise you to simply have a day. Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself. It will be better soon, so have a day"



Trapped inside my own head, feeling overwhelmed with emotions, with panic.
For me, this is a day to day struggle. Picking apart a thought at a time trying to release the fear that I am drowning in. So desperately trying to find peace, or at the very least keep the buzzing down of the ten thousand thoughts inside my head. Some days they take over my whole body and I am left paralyzed, alone in the dark. A feeling I thought no one could understand.

How could someone even begin to empathize with me when the mess in my head feels like monsters taking over?

We are not alone, and we are not outcasts. We will find peace within, Taking one thought at a time and dissecting it until there is nothing left but quiet, peace. My goal, my journey, will be to pick apart a thought each day, to calm the buzzing, the calm the panic, diminish the overwhelming feelings, To have a life, to have control, to have peace.